Letter for a True Hero

Monday, July 27, 2015


Letter for a True Hero

Dear R.,

In the past almost seven years I’ve known you, I’ve written you more letters than I can keep track of. You have been such a huge part of my life since the day I met you. You have been my hero, my voice of reason when I have none. You have been my very best friend, and my person, the one person I always knew I could count on. You have been my motivation, inspiration, and encouragement. You have been my hope, my light, and my reason for living. You have been my everything. 

And then I lost you.

The day I lost your friendship was one of the worst days of my life. It made me physically ill to watch you walk out of my life. I cried myself to sleep for months, and made some really awful, destructive choices. Even now, a whole year later, I still miss you intensely. And I know I have no one to blame except myself. 

I idolized you so much that I was always trying to impress you. I was not always myself with you. I didn’t let you in like I should have. And it is only after losing you that I am able to admit it. I needed to lose you to grow into myself. I needed to lose you so I could stop depending on you to save me and learn how to save myself.

But if I could take it back, if I could have you in my life again, I would without question. Because you are still one of the greatest, most inspirational people I’ve ever met. You are a true hero. You know how to solve just about every problem. You see the world as simple, a creation of your own perception. You accept life. You embrace the struggle. In your own words, you “don’t dwell on negative shit.” You are a reminder that no matter what happens, life is always worth living because life is always whatever you choose to make it. You changed my negative perception on life so many times. Too many times, you saved me from myself.

I want you to know that I’m so grateful to have known you, to have had you in my life. You gave me hope when I didn’t have any. You were my best and only friend when I couldn’t be a friend to myself. You were my everything for so long, and there is still nothing I wouldn’t do for you. If you asked for the world, I would find a way to give it to you. I love you so very, very much, and I wish the best for you in everything you do. I wish you all the happiness and love and success in the world because you deserve nothing less. Thank you for everything.

With love,


Kayla

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