When your greatest dreams come true, do you stay the same?
Personally, I found it much harder to even try. I was invisible before, the last to be noticed in a room, if I was even noticed at all. In a crowd, I was easy to miss, and I received many accidental shoves and elbows to the side without an apology. Not because the people were rude, but because they hadn’t even known they had hit anything.
But then I found fame. Or rather, fame found me when it happened to be dining in the same hole-in-the-wall restaurant that had given me the gig to sing for the evening. Fame proved that I wasn’t invisible after all. I just needed the right kind of spotlight to shine.
And I did.
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To say that I wasn’t interested in staying the same as I always had been would be an understatement.
I was ready to completely reinvent myself in whatever way my publicist saw fit. I modeled for advertisements for products I would never use, and wore brand-name clothing for the label rather than the comfort.
There was nothing comfortable about this life which is what made it so extraordinary. I got caught up in the excess of it all.
And I lost who I was completely.
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What they don’t tell you about fame is that it’s lonely. Even more so when you can’t even count on yourself. I had forgotten who I was, and didn’t realize I was lost until I realized there was nobody around to remember.
Fame has a large price to pay. It comes at the cost of what matters, of who matters.
And it takes much more than was spent to get it all back.
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Is it worth it to pursue your dreams?
Most definitely.
But be careful. Don’t lose track of the melody that is your soul.
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