author: kayla mathys

Music Monday: Where Are You by B.o.B.



A fictional interpretation of a song by B.o.B.


When your greatest dreams come true, do you stay the same?

Personally, I found it much harder to even try. I was invisible before, the last to be noticed in a room, if I was even noticed at all. In a crowd, I was easy to miss, and I received many accidental shoves and elbows to the side without an apology. Not because the people were rude, but because they hadn’t even known they had hit anything.

But then I found fame. Or rather, fame found me when it happened to be dining in the same hole-in-the-wall restaurant that had given me the gig to sing for the evening. Fame proved that I wasn’t invisible after all. I just needed the right kind of spotlight to shine.

And I did.


***

To say that I wasn’t interested in staying the same as I always had been would be an understatement.

I was ready to completely reinvent myself in whatever way my publicist saw fit. I modeled for advertisements for products I would never use, and wore brand-name clothing for the label rather than the comfort. 

There was nothing comfortable about this life which is what made it so extraordinary. I got caught up in the excess of it all.

And I lost who I was completely.

***

What they don’t tell you about fame is that it’s lonely. Even more so when you can’t even count on yourself. I had forgotten who I was, and didn’t realize I was lost until I realized there was nobody around to remember.

Fame has a large price to pay. It comes at the cost of what matters, of who matters. 

And it takes much more than was spent to get it all back.

***

Is it worth it to pursue your dreams?

Most definitely.

But be careful. Don’t lose track of the melody that is your soul. 


Because a dream without the soul is just a dream.

Kayla L. Mathys

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